wanting to make changes in your life, when your life is integrated in to so many other peoples is difficult. and it sucks.
i want to lose weight,
stay on budget,
stop participating in church,
focus on my/ our priorities and less on other peoples
live in a clean, clutter free house
and without removing myself from my family i cant seem to do that, and since i am not going to remove myself from my family i am stuck. then i get angry and we argue. and its all my damn fault. because i do this and i do that and its all about shitty i am . so how do you make changes in your life with one arm tied behind your back, this is something i have spent 10 years trying to figure out. and without the pills it is like a raw open wound, that is going to bother me until i start taking the pills or start making some changes.
