beginning a new year and craving a new life that i cant have is frustrating as hell. knowing that what i want and cant have is something i wouldnt want for long, and that the person i amenvious of is no bettter off is hell. learning to adjust what i have so that i am happy is a difficult but noble goal for this year. i am 33 years old and have little idea who i am out side of so and so's mom, so and so's wife... i need to learn to assert a little bit of me in to me.